It’s been a long time since I last posted here.
Some major things have happened over the last two years since my last post and the reason why I haven’t been here in a while.
Over the Summer of 2011 I became very ill. I entered the hospital that August. I spent 4 days in the hospital and another 6 weeks at home recovering. I was very anemic with my blood count so low that the doctors wanted to perform a blood transfusion right there in the ER. I also discovered that like many in my family, I am diabetic. Between the two, I was very ill. It took probably a full year to feel like I was close to being “normal” once again. With the loving help of family and friends, I did recover. Soon I was able to get back to work and for a time things smoothed out, for a while.
In November of last year, my father was diagonosed with lung and brain cancer. Devastating news of course but that wasn’t all. My mother was diagnosed with Inersticial Lung desease. She spent 8 days in the hospital and had to undergo a lung biopsy for the doctors to figure out what was actually wrong with her. During this time, my dad was starting his decline. I became his main caregiver. Once my mom made it home from the hospital, I became her caregiver as well. My dad passed away last April.
To say the last two years have not been easy would be the understatement of the century. Somehow, I made it through. Somehow my family has made it through. I would like to think that the last two years has brought my family a little closer. It some ways it has. In others, I think we have gone in separate directions. That’s probably normal though because everyone has to find their own path to healing. Sometimes that journey can be a very lonely.
It’s been a hellatius two years but I am determined to make my life better. I spend a lot of time in prayer and meditation. That has helped with the healing process. The one thing that never crossed my mind during this entire time was “why me?”. Why not me? Things happen every day to everyone on this planet. The key I believe is to learn how to navigate through all the turmoil to find a place of peace and happiness. No one can make any of us happy, that is a decision we all have to make for ourselves. I figured out some tme ago that it doesn’t matter what others may think of me. I have to live for me and me alone. Dr. Wayne Dyer mentioned once that if you enter a room of 500 people, your going to have 500 reputations. So, don’t worry about what others may be thinking of you, just worry about what you think about you. Make sure it is something good.
Part of this process of making my life better is getting a handle on the diabetes. It’s a real drag to have to deal with this illness but it is what it is and I have to make the best of the situation. Right now I am working on my everyday diet. The goal is to not cause a lot of blood sugar spikes and drops. They make you feel awful! I am also working out every morning.
I am very stressed out right now. After everything I have been through, I guess that’s understandable. I am working to make my life better though. It’s a process for sure, but I do believe it is doable.
I hope you will follow me on this journey and feel free to leave your comments. Maybe we can encourage each other.
I’m out for now.
Till next time,
Peace and love.
Lucinda
being my own favorite diva 